My Christmas Wish List

So as I read a friend's blog, I realize that I'm no where near as witty or funny as she is in her writing. And that leads me to think of all the things I wish I had talent in...

I wish I could dance. Well, not just dance, but classical or ballet or ballroom or salsa, ok - I really mean just dance. In my mind's eye, I have grace and poise, but in reality I'm clumsy and can barely walk straight. I've walked into my share of walls. Last week, actually!

I wish I could sing. My mother and sister have truly beautiful voices... I, however, am a frog who can't follow a tune. I do make myself laugh in the car however. And so far, the kids aren't complaining... though I know that will change.

I wish I could write. I love a good book that keeps me spinning until the end. I keep thinking that the next great novel exists inside my head... but reality again keeps my feet firmly planted on the ground.

I wish I was inspired to draw or paint. I'm not half bad as an artist, but I'm so busy in the daily life of being a working mom that I don't have any energy left.

That also leads to I wish I was more active. Better at sports, better at working out, stronger, faster, younger... I wish I liked working out as well. I'd love to have a better body and be in better shape. I worry about keeping up with the kids as they get more active.

I wish I had kept better track of my friends. Life has gotten completely in the way. I've lost more friends than I can count - not really had a falling out, just misplaced them somewhere. I miss them terribly.

I wish that life was easier. This year we came inches away from losing everything we'd worked so hard to obtain. We'll be digging out of this hole for a very long time. I wish we could have a small windfall to take that worry off my plate.

So when I look at my life, I'm stressed to the max, crazy busy between work, the kids, the house, the pets and squeezing in family and friend time. I pray that 2010 will be a better year and we will be healthy and happy. Perhaps it will also bring a new addition to our growing family, or perhaps this is the way our family should be... To everyone who takes a moment to read the inner workings of my brain.... thank you! I hope that your New Year brings you all that you hope and "wish" for. I am thinking of you, even when I don't say so. May God bless us all! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!