Oh where am I going?

Today I spent the day pouring over a company's financials trying to piece together an income statement. 7 hours with my butt stuck in a chair and hunched over a computer keyboard....not the highlight! I enjoyed parts of it - kind of like a puzzle to be put together - but for the most part I just longed to be with the kids. My boss told me that he's pleased with the progress I've given him, but I have to admit that I feel like I really didn't do anything. I've been fighting a deep depression over our financial situation for the past few weeks. I so want to be everything all at once. I want to be the awesome mom, who's there for the kids for every first. I want to show my daughter it's great to be a strong woman and having a good career can be rewarding as well. I want to travel and see what the world (even just our small corner of it) has to offer. I still feel after 35 (almost 36) years that I just don't have a path to follow. I just wish I could go to sleep and wake up with all the answers.