So here I've landed...

Today I accepted a full time position with the company that I've been temp'ing for. I'm not really sure how I feel about it. There are many positives with the position; nice people, great benefits, flexible schedule, etc. Of course it brings negatives as well, a 45 min commute and a 30% cut in pay. And the biggest is leaving the kids. I'm hoping that the flexible schedule makes it easier on me and gives me more time with the kids - we'll see how well it works out in the next few weeks. It's so difficult working full time and so far from the house. Half the time i leave before they get up in the morning and by the time I get home they are tired and cranky. The two days over the weekend is just too short to enjoy the limited time I get. Of course it's been raining here for over a week and that is just adding to my depression. As much as I love my family, the "pep" talks they feel are necessary to give me just add to my downfall. I'm tired of hearing how great it is to get out of the house and how wonderful it is that I have this job. Its not that I don't think this job is a great opportunity for me. I do, but I wish that I can have my cake and eat it too....